Up and down

Duno y..tis few days my mood is jz like Kampar weather...raining all da time~~>.<... my heart goin up n down~~~full of many emotion~~~stressful..miserable..angry..nt hapi..bore..all kinds of emotion like rojak cm 2gether... aihzzzz..mayb tis few week bc wit my mid term test n assignment [actuali nt reali rajin study bt rush wit my assssignment].....time go vy fas bt my schedule ful wit all tis FUCKing work....i reali tired wit tis.... smtimes reali feel lazy...xlarat wanna do so....bt wat can do.....result is urs....if din work hard for these...until final...sure wil regret...aihzzzz....recently...whn i lying on my bed or stand against da wall...sure wil think many thgs... suddenly got tat feel wanna go bac home...mis home lerrr...i reali nid some1 to protect me and cure my fragile heart~~~tis few day i kip finding tis feeling...bt thn i knw..i edi lost it since lng time ago....reali wish to hv sm1 love me n sayang me..>.<.... actuali i nt tat strong~~~~everytime i oso try to cover up myself infrnt of u guys.....smtimes i nt dare to cry infrnt of thm...honestly to say..i like to smile...i like to laugh...bt thn..nwdays i cant make it frm my true heart.....nobody can understand wad i thinkin nw~~~..... i cry without droppin out da tears..it is vyvyvyvvy painful....i cant express it wel.....arrgghh!!!! nw..my mood getting worst....i cant control it lerr..bt i reali scare wil hurt my frens tat around me...i try to cover up myself properly and make myself tenang whn tok to thm..bt i knw..it cant tahan lama...she wil knw...>.<...mayb after i knw tat he edi nt single n available...thn i bcm more zd~~~aihzzzz... i cant even concentrate do anythg else lerr...
nw...i jz wanna slip....cz in my dream jz wil fulfill wad i wan...my life jz wil bcm colorfull~~~~~i nid to sLIP MORE!!!...

p/s: 被愛的感覺已消失在我的世界了...........
i reali hope tat i can find bac those feeling tat edi gone in my life~~~~~>.<...