Izzit jz bcz of me????

Currently in Tm~~~
around 11a.m reach tm edi~~
2ml wil goin to sungai Buloh Hospital visit my granma....
doc said..tis 2days is vy important for her....hope tat 2ml she wil b in gd condition....>.<
i dun wish anythg happen on her.....GOD...plsss bless her!!!....
i dun wish my dad rush here n thr jz after his work....tis wil make him more tired tired n tired....
wel...i mostly wil go bac to kampar on monday...
sori....frens...cz i left u guys at thr rushing da assignment n da presentation..
sori miss rekha...tat i gonna skip ur class again..cz i reali cant rush bac at tat time..
sori miss kow...i cant attend to ur class..
>.<....bo ban huat...

Jz nw wailam sms told me tat he go dinner wit damien thm...at1st..i tot he go out wit sk..jh..dora thm..mana tau...i feel surprise is..he go out wit KBC..yj..sam..damien..sk thm....+ is kbc ajak them tim~~~...jz after i read his msg...my heart broke....ping piang~~~feel tat..izzit jz cz of me...he dunwan ajak wl go out wit him????he nvr n won ajak wl go out 2gether wit him if i at thr~~~~
if reali like tis~~~ok..i sek do~~
nex time i wil makan sendiri or go out eat wit my classmate..
i won ajak him~~
let u go wit him~~~
i oways wish tat u can go out wit us whn in kampar..bt thn u oways reject us..
nw..i nt around...u call thm out...
fine~~~
perhaps..is jz cz of me...i wil sek do nex time....

p/s: 我是人，是你的朋友 ； 不是影子。
请不要再把我当着透明，那种感觉真得很不好受！！

PLss DUN scared me ler!!!!>.<

ytd whn i attend to marketing class....i receive msg frm my mum....i felt shocked whn i read da msg..n my tears drop out automatically....she told me tat granma爆血管...ask me inform 2 sister....mus hv xin li zhun bei...it is unbelieveble....!!i cant ever accept it...aihZzzz...da class stil goin on..so i mus cover up myself...pretend nth...bt i reali cant concentrate wad mr.navin teach...aihZzzz...
at tat time..i reali moody...no mood at all..i knw..u guys can feel it..bt i reali no mood wanna tel u guys...sori...>.<...jz after da class..i cal my sis..thks god tat thy 2 din answer my call!!!duno bc doin wad.....make me more luen...thn i call up my mum....i jz heard her voice...beh tahan....i cry at aside....luckily..thr is sm1 acompany...cz he edi feel tat i xnormal since da class end...thks alot..my dear...jian haur....
i let myself tenang..calm down edi thn continue go to da management class...walaoehhh...duno wad day lai...gv me so many chi gik~~~my management jz get 20marks /30..aihZzzz..i tui bu edi...i knw those question i shld nt careless!!!shld nt do wrg!!!!hw cm~~~~aihzzzz.....suen lerr....cant change da fact...
v saw sk whn v go to toilet...she told me tat she nt reali hapi...cz her frens buli her n make her angry edi...thy tease her without notice tat edi over..wel....me n jianhaur usuali nt reali suang her fren...especially da paktuo kia~~~hate her 99!!!oways buli her!!!after her class..cm bac home...i saw her nt reali hapi...cm bac change short pants thn terus lie on da bed...cover her face wit her 'mian fen'[bantal's name]....tat time i bc wit my webpage practical...cz hving exam 2day morning...[practise until midnite...cant study marketing...!!!ltr sure die...]aihZzzz.....feel tat she is crying at tat time...so i din tok much to her..let her tenang 1st....
thn 2day..jz after da test..i told all tis to jian haur.....he plan tat wan to warning her fren...especiali da gal.....he ask me mus do oso....so tat thy won bully her again..bt i think tat..if v do tat..tis jz wil make sk n her fren beh song n their frenship got gap edi..thn wil break up like tis..aihZZzzz...
wad shld i do leh???i reali duno...if can...i wish to slapp da gal!!!!!!!scold her!!!![boss ler la!!!got bf ler la!!dai ga jie ler la!!!nah!!!~~]bt i cant~~aihZzzz...
hope tat she wil ok soon~~~~~
granma wil recover soon...
LYT oso...i dunwan so much chi gik lerrr...>.<..BAI TUO!!!!

執著

心裏不停的在掙扎，
到底該如何是好？
執著這份感情，
不舍得放手，
但你曉得嗎?
告诉你這一切，
能改變現在的事实嗎？
這只會讓大家變得更尷尬而已。
我認输了，不能再被时间折磨了。
但我執著，
執著著你我之間的情感。
此時此刻，
我無法做出任何的決著，
只好接受這一切。
凝望著鋪滿星星的夜空，微風迎面而來，
好舒服.........
夜裏的星空真的好美，
但會有哪一顆星星是了解我，属于我的呢？？

Up and down

Duno y..tis few days my mood is jz like Kampar weather...raining all da time~~>.<... my heart goin up n down~~~full of many emotion~~~stressful..miserable..angry..nt hapi..bore..all kinds of emotion like rojak cm 2gether... aihzzzz..mayb tis few week bc wit my mid term test n assignment [actuali nt reali rajin study bt rush wit my assssignment].....time go vy fas bt my schedule ful wit all tis FUCKing work....i reali tired wit tis.... smtimes reali feel lazy...xlarat wanna do so....bt wat can do.....result is urs....if din work hard for these...until final...sure wil regret...aihzzzz....recently...whn i lying on my bed or stand against da wall...sure wil think many thgs... suddenly got tat feel wanna go bac home...mis home lerrr...i reali nid some1 to protect me and cure my fragile heart~~~tis few day i kip finding tis feeling...bt thn i knw..i edi lost it since lng time ago....reali wish to hv sm1 love me n sayang me..>.<.... actuali i nt tat strong~~~~everytime i oso try to cover up myself infrnt of u guys.....smtimes i nt dare to cry infrnt of thm...honestly to say..i like to smile...i like to laugh...bt thn..nwdays i cant make it frm my true heart.....nobody can understand wad i thinkin nw~~~..... i cry without droppin out da tears..it is vyvyvyvvy painful....i cant express it wel.....arrgghh!!!! nw..my mood getting worst....i cant control it lerr..bt i reali scare wil hurt my frens tat around me...i try to cover up myself properly and make myself tenang whn tok to thm..bt i knw..it cant tahan lama...she wil knw...>.<...mayb after i knw tat he edi nt single n available...thn i bcm more zd~~~aihzzzz... i cant even concentrate do anythg else lerr...
nw...i jz wanna slip....cz in my dream jz wil fulfill wad i wan...my life jz wil bcm colorfull~~~~~i nid to sLIP MORE!!!...

p/s: 被愛的感覺已消失在我的世界了...........
i reali hope tat i can find bac those feeling tat edi gone in my life~~~~~>.<...

Luen~

Jz finish my dinner wit my frens...went to yc oso... 7.30p.m go out until almos 11.30p.m...
heng long + MM.....geng....
while i yc~ing....receive his call...
feel shock whn he told me tat~~~
dun b so sad my fren...
everythg will hv a ending n it wil b fine soon.....
duno y...
feel sad + sakit hati after get tis BIG news....
my tears drop out automatically....
i oso duno y....
mayb zd lerr...
cant control myself too~~~~
mayb i thinkin me n 'him' while i listenning to wad she said....
perhaps..it mayb a grand new life for thm....
hope everythg can getting smoothly thn nw....
dun think much lerr..my dear frens...

WElcome bac to TM~~~~

Jz after my practical classs...i quickly fly bac home pack all my thgs n hving breakfas wit thm...thn around 11a.m...siang fetch me to old town bus stp to take bus cm bac to tm..heheee...taijie wan cm bac..sure got leng follow de...[jian haur n doraemon..]jkjkjk...nia...1st time i go bac alone frm kampar...thy 2 nt fong shem so accompany me until da bus start move...[thy reali treat me like budak...ask me cal thm whn reach home...dun cry...blablabla...=.='']...i jz take almos 2hrs+++ thn cm bac edi...walao..1st time...all da bus driver drive gila fas..haha....
i reali enjoy myself whn i cm bac to tm~~~~almos half month din cm bac lerr...mis tm much..@.@...well...edi suffer at thr so much..cm bac here sure mus slip 99..haha...n kip hving chit chat time wit my lovely mum n bro....
Y i wil cm bac alone???cz sk hving her exam so cnt cm bac wit me..[wel..i wanna say tat..ppl hving exam cnt cm bac..n i had promise my parents tat wil go to kl visit my granny 2gether wit thm..since i edi lng time din visit her...i reali nt understand..y u guys wanna blame me..i cm bac here..nt onli wanna hang out wit my fren..bt thn i jz wanna hv much time wit my family too..y wanna blame me n say me 'mou yi hei'..i nvr think tat wan leave her at thr..bt da timing reali bo ngam~~wad else i can do..!!!!loks like everythg is my fault..=.='''..if U reali wori abt her..n think tat i mou yi hei thn u pls help me take k of her...n shw me hw u got yi hei towards her...jaga rumah for us!!!let her fong shem rest..while u jaga rumah~~=.=''']aihZzz...damien n othrs?...thy cm bac at 2pm...seem ppl oso no ajak me bac 2gether..wad for i wan wait for thm leh...so...better cm bac alone..[frankly to say tat..got abit dissapointed to u guys..v oso take same bus n wil cm bac to same place 2gether...y cnt ajak me cm bac samasama seem everytime i oso wil ajak u guys...izzit u n me stil nt in gd relationship thn u wanna treat me like transparent..i Xfhm...>.<...]
i like tat feel...1 ppl take bus....can sit diamdiam~~~think bukan bukan..haha..i like to take hup yik bus although is ci plak bus..no air con...old old dei~~~bt i stil like it...cz can buka da window...whn da wind oncming....feel vy comrtable...bt thn yts...got 2 yin chan[rokok kia]sit bside me....rokok smmore at thr..=.='''..thn tok vy rude thr...all mothr father cm out~~~#$$@%%@@#$!#....ding~~~luckily...tapah to bidor is jz a short distance...so i can get out of tis such tempat soon.....haha...
wanna say sori to u guys tat find me at tat time..my hp hv no battery..so i cant answer n reply u guys msg as wel....whn i cm bac home....buka hp...walao ehh..almos bao zha~~~got many miss cal n msg..heheeee..reali sori..nex time i wil charge my hp b4 leaving de..
ohya~~~doraemon report cm out edi..reali thks to our haur gor tat accompany him go clinic take it...[he reali scare to go clinic..haha..]luckily...doraemon report is vy normal...n din infect HIV　ｏｒ　ＡＩＤＳ　ｏｓｏ．．．he reali sendiri takut sendiri...reali wan gv me scold..haha...

p/s: as i knw...thy took 4pm bus cm bac to tm....n thy r in same bus wit lin yu thai~~~haha....hope damien din fight wit him~~~wel..i reali like to take bus alone compare to 1 group frensss....haha..i oso duno y ~~~

做書簽，獻愛心

-11-11-08-
1336,westlake......
8.30p.m - 10p.m ++

第三次的聚會：
法閱閣所有上下成員，都聚集在這裡，做什麽呢？？？BINGO!!!!就是做書簽。。還未開始前，在拉曼大學的輔導老師領導之下，大家圍繞在一個圓圈，閉上眼睛，臉帶微笑，聼這動聽的歌曲，慢慢的進入了狀況。大家都紛紛獻上愛心，用心的去做書簽。
書簽的售價是RM5一個，所得到的籌款將會送給廟裏的師傅以及法國梅村的居民，以便幫補他們。在這過程當中，大家都高談闊論，有說有笑，輕輕松松的，真得好不開心。^^.......
第一次，在法閱閣的聚會，我並沒有發出任何的意見，也沒多些說什麽。只是專心地把握手上的書簽完成好。自己也搞不懂，爲什麽這一次的活動我會如此的認真起來，當時的我，心裏根本沒有起任何的雜念，只想一心一意把書簽做好，希望有心人會買，以幫助那些有需要的人。也希望梅村的居民能感受到我們的愛心。
我知道，你們感受到異常的我，其實我真的沒事，只是想用心把書簽做好，出份綿力幫助他們。就只有這樣罷了，沒他的。
p/s : 很不習慣對吧？？哈哈。。。

*快樂的此時此刻，是無法用字形容的；
用心去體驗災民的痛苦，
認真地去完成這義工，
幫助他們也幫助自己，
滿足他們的需求，救濟他們，撫慰他們的心靈；
也滿足我們的心窩。
這份發自内心的喜悅，
別人與金錢是無可替代的。

雖然很累，但第一次做義工，再多的疲累也被我踢走了，拜拜！！！真的好開心~~好開心~~~
衷心的祈禱：希望你們能感受到我們的祝福與愛心。也希望有緣人士，能把書簽買下，幫助梅村的居民，拜托了！！！！~~~