Y me???

aihZzzz..ytd get a bad news...
2day 5.30p.m. gonna go meeting...
Mr.pek wanna c us...!!!!!
y i kena??sobZzzz....
seem they skip class more than me...
1 week oso jz c thm 1 or 2times nia...
hw cm is me????
i jz skip more writting for business class nia...thn kena edi...
nt fair at all!!!!!>.<...
feel tat reali paiseh..
all house ppl oso no kena..
jz me n damien..[wel..ppl hv no choice...low CGPA...so hv to go]
bt me...aihZzzz..i reali scare....
duno hw to face it...
hope wil nt kena bare...>.<....

GOD~~~~plsssss...

Went to visit popo jz nw...
in same hospital~~~sungai buloh thr...
same condition~~~stil nt yt awake....
1st time go visit her...
after da surgery..she bcm botak edi...
feel sakit hati whn saw her...
got a bigbig wound around her head....
doc jz use smthg like stapler....sewing her wound...
thn got many tube sambung her mouth body and othr part of body..
her pulse is quite weak...n her body is swollen..cz doc jz inject da vitamin n glucose for her....
i reali wori abt her...
MAY GOD BLESS HER....
all my relative included granma's sis and her youngest daughter oso cm bac visit her..except some of my cousin sis n bro tat still nt yt fly cm bac to Malaysia...1 of my aunti tat stil hving trip in China....

I reali dunlike those ppl[i mean my relative]tat oways say ' wel...nw oso cant do anythg...if she reali can awake mayb oso wil bcm coma~~nw can visit hw many times thn go hw many times....'...i knw..is a fact..n i gonna face it..bt thn..i dunlike thy oways tok abt tis..i knw v gonna hv XIN LI ZHUN BEI...bt i jz feel tat...our support towards her izzit would more important n usefull to her leh???izzit shuold let her feel tat wat v think positively n support her mentally although she stil nt yt awake...N i knw...popo can feel it..wat v toking abt....

i cant do anythg...i'm nt doc....as her grandaughter..i jz hope tat everythg wil b fine to her...n oso my family too!!...too many thgs happen edi..make my dad..uncle n aunti oso tired wit all tis...i knw mayb thr wil b a trouble after she awake....bt thn atleast thr wil b nt a sad n unhapi thgs happen around us...bcz chinese new year almos nearly....

HOPE granma wil b fine
LYT wil b fine
LSK wil b fine
all of my family wil b fine
all my fren wil b fine...

FINE!!!FINE!!!FINE!!!ENOUGH~~~~~

Izzit jz bcz of me????

Currently in Tm~~~
around 11a.m reach tm edi~~
2ml wil goin to sungai Buloh Hospital visit my granma....
doc said..tis 2days is vy important for her....hope tat 2ml she wil b in gd condition....>.<
i dun wish anythg happen on her.....GOD...plsss bless her!!!....
i dun wish my dad rush here n thr jz after his work....tis wil make him more tired tired n tired....
wel...i mostly wil go bac to kampar on monday...
sori....frens...cz i left u guys at thr rushing da assignment n da presentation..
sori miss rekha...tat i gonna skip ur class again..cz i reali cant rush bac at tat time..
sori miss kow...i cant attend to ur class..
>.<....bo ban huat...

Jz nw wailam sms told me tat he go dinner wit damien thm...at1st..i tot he go out wit sk..jh..dora thm..mana tau...i feel surprise is..he go out wit KBC..yj..sam..damien..sk thm....+ is kbc ajak them tim~~~...jz after i read his msg...my heart broke....ping piang~~~feel tat..izzit jz cz of me...he dunwan ajak wl go out wit him????he nvr n won ajak wl go out 2gether wit him if i at thr~~~~
if reali like tis~~~ok..i sek do~~
nex time i wil makan sendiri or go out eat wit my classmate..
i won ajak him~~
let u go wit him~~~
i oways wish tat u can go out wit us whn in kampar..bt thn u oways reject us..
nw..i nt around...u call thm out...
fine~~~
perhaps..is jz cz of me...i wil sek do nex time....

p/s: 我是人，是你的朋友 ； 不是影子。
请不要再把我当着透明，那种感觉真得很不好受！！

PLss DUN scared me ler!!!!>.<

ytd whn i attend to marketing class....i receive msg frm my mum....i felt shocked whn i read da msg..n my tears drop out automatically....she told me tat granma爆血管...ask me inform 2 sister....mus hv xin li zhun bei...it is unbelieveble....!!i cant ever accept it...aihZzzz...da class stil goin on..so i mus cover up myself...pretend nth...bt i reali cant concentrate wad mr.navin teach...aihZzzz...
at tat time..i reali moody...no mood at all..i knw..u guys can feel it..bt i reali no mood wanna tel u guys...sori...>.<...jz after da class..i cal my sis..thks god tat thy 2 din answer my call!!!duno bc doin wad.....make me more luen...thn i call up my mum....i jz heard her voice...beh tahan....i cry at aside....luckily..thr is sm1 acompany...cz he edi feel tat i xnormal since da class end...thks alot..my dear...jian haur....
i let myself tenang..calm down edi thn continue go to da management class...walaoehhh...duno wad day lai...gv me so many chi gik~~~my management jz get 20marks /30..aihZzzz..i tui bu edi...i knw those question i shld nt careless!!!shld nt do wrg!!!!hw cm~~~~aihzzzz.....suen lerr....cant change da fact...
v saw sk whn v go to toilet...she told me tat she nt reali hapi...cz her frens buli her n make her angry edi...thy tease her without notice tat edi over..wel....me n jianhaur usuali nt reali suang her fren...especially da paktuo kia~~~hate her 99!!!oways buli her!!!after her class..cm bac home...i saw her nt reali hapi...cm bac change short pants thn terus lie on da bed...cover her face wit her 'mian fen'[bantal's name]....tat time i bc wit my webpage practical...cz hving exam 2day morning...[practise until midnite...cant study marketing...!!!ltr sure die...]aihZzzz.....feel tat she is crying at tat time...so i din tok much to her..let her tenang 1st....
thn 2day..jz after da test..i told all tis to jian haur.....he plan tat wan to warning her fren...especiali da gal.....he ask me mus do oso....so tat thy won bully her again..bt i think tat..if v do tat..tis jz wil make sk n her fren beh song n their frenship got gap edi..thn wil break up like tis..aihZZzzz...
wad shld i do leh???i reali duno...if can...i wish to slapp da gal!!!!!!!scold her!!!![boss ler la!!!got bf ler la!!dai ga jie ler la!!!nah!!!~~]bt i cant~~aihZzzz...
hope tat she wil ok soon~~~~~
granma wil recover soon...
LYT oso...i dunwan so much chi gik lerrr...>.<..BAI TUO!!!!

執著

心裏不停的在掙扎，
到底該如何是好？
執著這份感情，
不舍得放手，
但你曉得嗎?
告诉你這一切，
能改變現在的事实嗎？
這只會讓大家變得更尷尬而已。
我認输了，不能再被时间折磨了。
但我執著，
執著著你我之間的情感。
此時此刻，
我無法做出任何的決著，
只好接受這一切。
凝望著鋪滿星星的夜空，微風迎面而來，
好舒服.........
夜裏的星空真的好美，
但會有哪一顆星星是了解我，属于我的呢？？

Up and down

Duno y..tis few days my mood is jz like Kampar weather...raining all da time~~>.<... my heart goin up n down~~~full of many emotion~~~stressful..miserable..angry..nt hapi..bore..all kinds of emotion like rojak cm 2gether... aihzzzz..mayb tis few week bc wit my mid term test n assignment [actuali nt reali rajin study bt rush wit my assssignment].....time go vy fas bt my schedule ful wit all tis FUCKing work....i reali tired wit tis.... smtimes reali feel lazy...xlarat wanna do so....bt wat can do.....result is urs....if din work hard for these...until final...sure wil regret...aihzzzz....recently...whn i lying on my bed or stand against da wall...sure wil think many thgs... suddenly got tat feel wanna go bac home...mis home lerrr...i reali nid some1 to protect me and cure my fragile heart~~~tis few day i kip finding tis feeling...bt thn i knw..i edi lost it since lng time ago....reali wish to hv sm1 love me n sayang me..>.<.... actuali i nt tat strong~~~~everytime i oso try to cover up myself infrnt of u guys.....smtimes i nt dare to cry infrnt of thm...honestly to say..i like to smile...i like to laugh...bt thn..nwdays i cant make it frm my true heart.....nobody can understand wad i thinkin nw~~~..... i cry without droppin out da tears..it is vyvyvyvvy painful....i cant express it wel.....arrgghh!!!! nw..my mood getting worst....i cant control it lerr..bt i reali scare wil hurt my frens tat around me...i try to cover up myself properly and make myself tenang whn tok to thm..bt i knw..it cant tahan lama...she wil knw...>.<...mayb after i knw tat he edi nt single n available...thn i bcm more zd~~~aihzzzz... i cant even concentrate do anythg else lerr...
nw...i jz wanna slip....cz in my dream jz wil fulfill wad i wan...my life jz wil bcm colorfull~~~~~i nid to sLIP MORE!!!...

p/s: 被愛的感覺已消失在我的世界了...........
i reali hope tat i can find bac those feeling tat edi gone in my life~~~~~>.<...

Luen~

Jz finish my dinner wit my frens...went to yc oso... 7.30p.m go out until almos 11.30p.m...
heng long + MM.....geng....
while i yc~ing....receive his call...
feel shock whn he told me tat~~~
dun b so sad my fren...
everythg will hv a ending n it wil b fine soon.....
duno y...
feel sad + sakit hati after get tis BIG news....
my tears drop out automatically....
i oso duno y....
mayb zd lerr...
cant control myself too~~~~
mayb i thinkin me n 'him' while i listenning to wad she said....
perhaps..it mayb a grand new life for thm....
hope everythg can getting smoothly thn nw....
dun think much lerr..my dear frens...